CHAPTER SIX: A NEW LEAF

Summer's Tale

Chapter Six: A new leaf.

“Goodnight Summer. I love you.” “Love you more Sean.” He took my face in his hands and kissed me passionately. It had been long ago since I had this kind of feeling, of being loved. I felt his lips turned into a smile as my hands dropped down to his waist. He gave me a hug, pulling my body closer, tighter to him. I know he was unwilling to let me go. “Okay, okay, Sean. I’ll see you in the top of morning tomorrow.” I giggled. “Who knows if you’ll run away from me again?” He stroked my hairs gently.

“Summer sweetie, are you out there?” The front door creaked and Mom peeped out. “Oops.” Sean moved away from me. “Gotta go love.” “Ciao.” I blew him a kiss and he stepped into his car. “Yes Mom, I’m out here.” I said and skipped into the house in joy. I glanced at his car and Sean waved his hands at me. I smiled and finally closed the door.

Mom stopped me when I rushed up to the stairs. “Summer, do you know what time is it?” “Uh.” My eyes searched for the wall clock. “Eleven thirty.” “Yes, and do you think you own me an explanation?” “Oh.” I forgot that I should be back in home by 5 in the afternoon. Gee, I was late for six hours. “Sean and I went for lunch after school. Then he brought me to the prettiest beach ever. We watched the sun set. Oh Mom, you have no idea how I wished I brought along my DSLR. After that, we went for dinner by the beach. The seafood was totally awesome. We got lost track in time.” “Sounds like you had fun, sweetie?” “Absolutely, Mom.” She smiled at me. “So, can I go to bed now?” I tried to run away before Mom has anymore questions for me. “Summer?” “Yessss… Mom?” I walked down a few steps. “Sean is a nice guy, Summer.” “Yeap, I know.” “But still, remember the rules.” “Yes, Mom.” Ugh, mothers. I cursed under my breath.

After getting ready to bed, I crawled down and took out a black box. I opened my drawer and took out all of Carter’s notes. I reread each and every one of them, recalling back the memories behind them for the very last time.

Dear Summer,
… You’re the best thing that ever happened to my life …

Honey,
… Tell me what happens if distance drifted us apart? …

My dearest Summer,
… You’re still living in a small little world of yours. You haven’t really seen the world outside yet. …

My love,
… I love you so much that I wished I could a better man for you.

I’d hear his voice, so clearly in my head. I could almost feel that he was holding me close, affectionately caressing my face just beside me. I took a deep breathe, wiped off my tears and placed the notes into the black box, deep inside so that I wouldn’t be able to look at them again. I reached out for the photo frame of Carter and I on the study desk. My fingers touched Carter’s face. I smiled at his handsome face, knowing that I wouldn’t see them anymore. I touched them once more and placed it above the notes.

I took out a piece of paper and started writing.

Dear Carter,
Today would be the last day I, Summer Darren ever cry for you. I swore to God that I’m so not gonna regret on my decision. I’m fed up with the Summer who’s caught in the depressed soul of hers. It’s time to break free. It’s time for the sunny Summer to come back.
Bye. Be happy.

P/S: Promises are not meant to be broken.

I’m not gonna regret this right? No, I’m not. I shook my head strongly. No more hesitation Summer, you will live your life. Live a better life. I took the box’s cover, stick the note on it, took a last glance inside it, and finally sealed up the box, and at the same time sealed up all the memories both of us once cherished.

That was the first night, since a very long time ago I smiled before I went to bed and slept soundly without any of the dreadful nightmares waking me in the middle of the night. I closed my eyes and the next second I opened them … rise and shine!

My eyes blinked and I could feel the heat burning on my legs, the sun was blazing outside. I stretched out my body and felt so different. I smiled and agreed on my own thought. Yes, different. I might be in my same old bedroom, like another same old day. No, today is different. Today is a brand new beginning. Today a new leaf would grow. I’ve let out all my anger, all my sadness and all my love for Carter. I’m leaving all of them behind and putting them back of my mind, hidden at a place where hopefully I would forget.

I got up and looked outside the window. It was so sunny, so … cheerful as if welcoming Summer in getting back to her life. I walked into my bathroom and cleaned up. I applied a little of mascara, a little of pink powder on my cheek, a little of lip gloss. Wait. This is too much. I rubbed off my make up and ruined all of them in a second. Or maybe they wouldn’t realize that? I applied the mascaras on my eyes again. Until I’ve repeated doing it for 10 minutes. I laughed at myself in the mirror. Oh silly me. What am I doing? In the end, only the lip gloss. Mmm, I licked them, strawberry flavor.

Then I slipped out of my bathrobe and rushed to pick a suitable outfit. I glanced up at the wall clock nervously. I do have to rush my time. Sean is gonna be here very soon. I got onto a yellow sleeveless dress. Yellow is my lucky color. I searched for a simple rubber band and tied up my hair into a pony tail. I ignored the few hairs that were jingling down my shoulder. I looked into the mirror loads of times, trying to convince myself I look great but every time I left the chair, I just felt uneasy. Finally, fed up with myself, I grabbed my bag pack.

Sean’s car stopped at my front gate. I ran and got in time to open the door for him before he rang the bell. I winked at him cheekily. He looked surprised, might be because of my beauty, or might be because I could read his mind. “Wow.” He finally spoke. “Hey, that’s not the right word.” “Oh sorry, your beauty got me totally mesmerized. It’s like an angel took a stop from heaven.” I laughed at his compliment. “Morning beauty.” His face was hanging his usual smiling look. “Should I say, morning beast?” I giggled. For a sudden I felt warmness in my hands, he grabbed it tightly and we walked towards his car.

“Is the difference that obvious?” I asked. The school was just around the corner. “Absolutely. You’re attracting everyone’s attention, even the poor beggar by the road side.” As I was about to turn and look. “Don’t look at him. His staring is pretty scary. Anyway, you really look different, in a good way. I’m glad to see that pretty smile of yours hanging on your face. It’s better like that.” I replied him with a silly smile. “Alright, we’ve reached our destination. Here we are, Wesley High School!” “Oh Sean, when will you ever get enough of your jokes?” Sean would never fail to make me laugh.

“People. Staring. Creepy.” I uttered the words one by one softly into Sean’s ears. “You. Looking. Sexy.” He copied the way I talked and I punched lightly on his chest. His muscular chest was hard as rock. I rubbed my fingers. “Ouch?” He teased. He placed his hand on my shoulder and side by side, we stepped into the school building. My face was lightened up with a smile. I was happy, by all heart. I have a really good feeling that things are definitely gonna be so much better from now on, well, as I promised myself it would.

We headed towards our lockers. A chime alike laughter was heard from not far. No doubt that was Kate. Soon, I could see all my friends. They were all there, leaning against their lockers. I haven’t realized they all had actually changed so much. I guess I really did miss out a lot for the past few months. I truly have a lot to catch up. Kate who used to be in pixie size had actually grown a few inches taller. Corinne who used to be the quiet one was actually laughing and chattering so happily with the others. Victoria was leaning her head on Fred’s shoulder. Wow, I didn’t even realize the two of them got together. They used to fight so much because they just never get to agree on anything together, never before. It’s amazing how the enemy turns into the lover. I continued surveying on the others. Then, I turned to Sean. He looked up and our eyes met. For a second, I felt like I was electrified. “Come on, let’s go over there.” I struggled with my steps. Impatiently, Sean pushed my shoulder. As we got nearer, their faint conversations slowly got clearer.

“This is a total mess. I don’t believe this. I really don’t.” Kate’s fingers touched her face and she shook her head. “What? April is with Carter?” Fred asked and his voice was pretty loud. “Lower your voice, Fred!” Victoria shouted at him. “I meant, seriously, how on earth they got together?” Fred asked again, with a questioning look on his face. “Hush, Summer’s coming.” Corinne hushed Fred and all of them turned to me. “Morning everybody. What were you guys talking about few seconds ago?” Sean greeted them with a smile, while I leaned nervously to him. “Oh nothing really.” Kate waved her hands. “Oh come on, what’s to hide?” Sean nudged her. “April is dating with Carter.” Fred suddenly blurted out. They all turned away from me. I guessed everyone was getting ready to take off before my tears were about to stream out. “Guys … I don’t give a damn about that guy anymore.” I gave them a cheerful smile. They were all surprised that those words came out from my voice and hesitated for a few moments, thinking of what to say. “So, does this mean Summer Darren is back?” Kate asked with joy in her tone. “Carter Smith is no one but an ex-boyfriend of mine, people.” Sean laid both of his hands on my shoulder. I glanced up at him and laughed.

“Hooray!” They all shouted in excitement. Kate and Corinne jumped up to me and hugged me so tightly. “Girls, Summer’s bone are cracking!” Sean teased. If it wasn’t for Sean, they really wouldn’t let me go. I smiled in relief. “You have no idea how overjoyed I am feeling now, sweetie!” Kate said. “Yes yes, I do. I know everyone misses Summer.” I laughed. “But honestly, I was sort of disappointed cause’ I thought that you and Carter could join Fred and I for the couple outing. Sounds like I don’t need to ask anymore. Too bad, your loss Summer.” I sensed some sarcastic tone as Victoria joked at me. “Ha, as if yours’ could last! But I’ve already got myself a better one.” Sean beamed. “You gotta be kidding me. That fast? You kick one off and you got another one immediately. Who’s the lucky guy?” Victoria’s question caught all of the others’ attention. “Huh. I thought you guys would have realized the second I came in.” They were still with the same weird look. “The best friend you all have known for years!” “SEAN!” They all shouted so loud, so loud that it might be enough for my ears to explode and following by a roar of laughter.

…

Six of us, me, Sean, Kate, Corrine, Victoria and Fred all sat together during lunch break. And they were being extremely chatty than ever. “This is a big deal, really. Summer’s back. We should make a celebration.” Kate suggested and I almost choked on my milk. “You serious? You want popping champagne, disco ball and all those?” “Sounds perfect to me.” She giggled. “Still the same old Kate. Always filled with celebrations and parties.” Sean chuckled under his breath. “Really, that’s not such of a bad idea technically.” Sean agreed. “I thought you were on my side?” I looked at him, pleading for his help. He raised up his hand, signaling he gave up and mouthed don’t get me into trouble, guys. The others laughed. “Wait, Summer your birthday is just this weekend right?” Corrine asked and I nodded unwillingly. “This Saturday to be exact.” Sean added and I glared at him. “You better watch out mister.” They oohed and aahed. “You better watch out. You better not cry. You better not pout, I’m telling you why. Summer is coming back to town!” Fred sang and eventually everyone burst into laughter, leaving me hiding my face in Sean’s arm. “Please Summer? You don’t need to do anything, just leave it to us!” Kate pulled my shirt and begged me. I couldn’t stand her pleading eyes. “Well technically, the thing I hate the most is, I don’t need to do anything. But, I guess a little celebration wouldn’t harm …” Kate shrieked before I even got to finish my line. Then, she immediately started whispering to the others on their plan. Sean touched my face gently and said, “It won’t be that bad, love.” His words calmed the butterflies which were fluttering in my stomach.

As the others were chattering excitedly about my celebration, I ignored them and looked around the café. Suddenly, April and Carter came into my sight. And they were walking straight towards my direction! Carter’s eyes flicked to mine. Immediately, I avoided making eye contact with him and looked down at my food. I knew I wasn’t ready for this. Not yet. I bite my fingers nervously. My body started to shake and I could feel cold perspirations forming on my forehead. Sean turned to me with a worried look. “What’s wrong Summer? Your lips are so white.” He traced the shape of my lips with his fingers. “Here comes the diva.” “With her prince charming.” I closed my ears tightly, ignoring the sound of their footsteps getting nearer and nearer. “Be brave Summer. You’ve got over Carter already remember? You need to show him that you’re happy with your life too. Without him.” Sean’s words gave me strength. And so, I took a deep breathe, straightened up my body and wiped off the sweats from my foreheads. Just in time before April reached our table.

“Hi, Summer.” “Yello!” My cheerful voice startled her. “Um, wow you’re in good mood.” “More than ever.” I replied with a smile. “Um okay, so the cheerleader team appeared to have an empty place and we’re in need of one cheerleader, urgently. I wonder if you’re interested in joining us? I heard that you’re pretty good in dancing.” I doubt that she was really complimenting me. “Hmm, how bout that fellow friends?” I turned to their faces. “That would be absolutely awesome Summer. You always wanted to be in the cheerleader team. Now the captain came to ask you personally!” Kate shrieked. “Can I ask my other girlfriends?” “No. If you did hear me, I said there’s only ONE empty place. And we’re only in need of ONE cheerleader.” She emphasized on the word ‘one’. “Sean?” “As long as you don’t hurt yourself. Anything would be fine with me, love. Who doesn’t love a hot cheerleader as their girlfriend eh?” I laughed, Carter frowned and his eyebrows wrinkled together when he heard the word ‘girlfriend’. April stopped him before he could say anything. “So?” “I’ll say. Why not give it a try?” “Great. We’re having practice everyday after school until 5. Are you able to make it?” “Yeap, I’ll be on time.” “Oh don’t get so excited first. Every new cheerleader has to success in doing every skill, to satisfy our coach during the tryout. Then you’re only officially on the team. So be ready.” “I’ll be ready then.” “Just to remind you, it’s typically difficult.” And she walked away from our table with her hand gripping Carter’s arm hard, as if Carter did not intend to leave. She swung her body left to right all the way, attracting every guy's attention. Their eyes never left from April until she sat down at her table. Wow, so cheerleading eh, sounds great to start off your new life Summer. A tiny voice spoke from my heart.

“Question 25. Diagram 12 shows three stages of meiosis.” It was Mrs. Tina’s Biology. Most of the students were concentrating on her lesson, Cell Division. Except for Theo who’s eyes were dreaming around the classroom. He stared blankly at the thin air as if hoping he can vanish into them this very second. Theo isn’t a smart kid. But he could be counted as smart for those who never care about school and exams. He’s arrogant and he has the worst attitude I’ve ever knew. He never listens during class and don’t need to say, he doesn’t respect the teachers as well. He has a spiky brown hair and thick eye brows. From head to toe, you can name at least 10 different brands. Yes, he’s the kind who speaks the material language. And what I hate the most about Theo is, there’s never a smile on his face.

Alright enough about Theo, let’s get back to Biology.

“Theo, can you answer question 25 for me?” Every teacher love to pick him to answer questions, even though they know Theo doesn’t give a damn to answer any of them. But they still do so. “Summer Darren knows it all, why don’t you ask her?” Theo pointed at me with his long index finger. The whole class turned and looked at me. I nearly jumped up from my seat. I wondered if people can realize my cheeks were burning. “Ah yes. Miss Darren. We’ve haven’t hear from you lately. Why don’t you try?” I nodded my head. “Miss Darren, what happens to the chromosomes at stage H?” “The homologous chromosomes separate and move to the opposite poles.” I was surprised by my answer. “Excellent Miss Darren, good job. That’s the perfect answer!” Mrs. Tina slightly clapped her hands. Theo gawked at me. I did nothing but grinned at him.

Throughout the whole day of school, I realize I was able to cope up with the lessons so easier, without anything distracting my mind. The teachers all looked glad that every time I would be the first to answer their questions. I almost expected Mrs. Yale saying, welcome back to school Summer when she praised me for answering her literature question.

“What a day!” I sighed when the bell finally rang. “Genius, do you really need to answer every teacher’s question?” Sean helped me with my books. “No. Not really, if there were another person to answer them.” He shook his head and I giggled. “Oh god. Sean. You know being genius is tough. Really. I’m extremely exhausted now.” We were almost at Sean’s car now. “I don’t even need to try, I can see that.” When he was about to get in the car, he turned to me. “Hey. Hand me your bag.” He opened his car door and threw my bag onto the seat. “Where are we heading?” He remained silent and took my hand. “I’ll send your bag back to your house later.” He stopped walking right in front of our school. “Come on. Get on my back.” He crouched down to the ground and patted his back. “Wha..t?” I wondered if I heard the wrong thing. “You, serious?” “Come on. Climb on my back.” “But I’m heavy!” He snickered. “Yeah right, if that’s it. I should be suffering from obese and heart attack already. Come on!” Sean patted his back and urged me again. I jumped up his back and he got in time to grab my legs. “Off we go.” I giggled and threw my hands over his neck. He held me protectively to his body and had no problem at all carrying me. “Take a nap love. It might cure your extreme exhaustion.” “Sean, the school is so far away from my house.” “Just shut up and close your eyes okay. I promise I’ll take you home before the sun sets.” My eyes still remained open. “I said sleep Summer.” “Fine.” I made a silly face and leaned my head on his shoulder. Slowly, my eyelid felt heavy and fell down …

“Wake up pineapple.” I blinked as my eyes struggled to open. “Told ya I’ll bring you home before the sun sets. Look over there!” Sean let me down from his back. The sun started to set at the west, and the whole sky is painted in reddish orange. “Don’t move.” And I stood still. “Close your eyes…” I could feel his face moving closer to my face. He exhaled and I could feel his breath. “No peeking!” I giggled. “What are you doing Sean?” My heart was racing. “Don’t move.” His soft lips touched my forehead, my eyes, my cheek and down to my lips. Seconds later, he just vanished. And I couldn’t feel him anymore. I opened my eyes and saw Sean running towards the opposite direction. I laughed. “Sean, my bag!”

…

I lied on my bed, hugging the smiley pillow and thought about my day. It’s funny how things change so differently. Only one day ago, I was still crying bitterly and mourning over my wounds. Now, not even 24 hours yet, I was smiling so sweetly, without any worries, sadness at all, smiling so sweetly on the guy who would be providing me the happiness I needed. A guy who had never crossed my mind before, yet now he’s stuck in there. And I’m not letting him out.

No, never the same mistake again.

CHAPTER FIVE: THE LEFTOVERS

Summer's Tale

Chapter Five: The leftovers.

All of them suddenly rushed by my side. Kate, Corinne, Victoria, Will, Rob, and a lot of others familiar faces. I tried to recall their names, but I couldn’t remember any of them. I glanced up at Sean, his face, only inches from mine and his hands, gripping my arms tightly. “Move aside. Let her have some fresh airs!”

I guess somebody might have notified the teachers by now. Or maybe even the principal. I could get expelled from the school for jumping off the building, suicide if you may prefer.

My thoughts were still back few minutes ago. That wasn’t just simply illusion of mine. Carter did call me. Summer, don’t do this, his voice repeating again in my mind. The way he called out for my name. It sounded so different from the others. Carter, he seemed to be more and more mysterious than he used to be. There feels like so many secret hidden beneath him, all awaiting for me to explore.

The tiniest chance, it might exist, a second chance.

“Let me help you.” Sean gently pulled me from the ground and we walked slowly, one step at a time, as if I might get tripped if our steps got faster. When we walked down the stairs, I thought I saw a familiar shadow among the crowds. I thought I saw Carter, at the very last end of the crowds. “Carter.” I turned my head and struggled to get off from Sean. At this very moment, I want to be in Carter’s arm. I want to feel his warmth running through my body. “No, Summer.” Sean looked at me, and instantly, I know he’s not gonna let me go right now. So, I walked even slower, taking carefully, each and every step.

“Sean Connor, you may stay and accompany Summer. The other students please wait outside. Or I think the teacher might prefer you all to go back to class.” The nurse said, her voice, loud and clear. Everyone is curious. Everyone wants to be the first to know about Summer Darren’s reason behind her attempt of suicide. So nobody moved their body out of the medical room. “Excuse me.” She cleared her throat. “Move along, kids … Katherine Ray and Corinne Dale, can you please ask Miss Lake to come to the medical room for a moment? A student might need some of her help and advice.” Her eyes flickered to me. Oh my, Miss Lake, the counselor, my nightmare.

I turned around to face Sean. “Don’t worry. I’ll be here.” He tapped my hands and gave me an encouraging look.

Knock knock. I have a few guesses. The principal, Mrs. Yale, Mom (it couldn’t possibly be Dad) or the counselor. The biggest chance, Miss Lake of course. She’s always on time. “Sorry, Miss …” “Janet.” “Sorry, Miss Janet. But Miss Lake appears to be not in her office.” The first time ever, I got wrong in guessing. It was Kate and Corinne. Miss Lake is finally in the right timing this time, even though as I mentioned earlier, she’s always on time. I could escape from the horror of spilling-the-truth session now. “Oh well, we couldn’t do anything about that can we? I guess, Summer can have a chat with Miss Lake later then.” I looked at my girls and gave them a thankful smile.

…

I had become the most popular topic among the high school students, from the drowning-in-rain incident, the Judith’s Pub incident and the hottest of all, my attempt of suicidal. People would have thought that I read too many books, burned my head and gone crazy, a psycho perhaps. I can hear people whispering about me, everywhere. Even in the toilet.

“I wonder what’s wrong with that smart ass.” “I heard she broke up with her boyfriend and ended up herself being even broken hearted.” A high pitched voice attracted my attention.” “Who’s the lucky guy?” I heard water splashing onto her face. “Did you live in a cave or something? You don’t even know Summer Darren’s boyfriend?” “Just tell me who is it.” “It’s Carter Smith, for god sake.” “Oh my, that hot, smart, charming, almost perfect guy is her boyfriend?” “Not anymore.” They laughed loudly and their voices faded as they got out of the toilet.

I pushed the toilet door and started splashing water onto my face, until I realized my shirt was soaking wet. “What took you so long Summer?” The door was half opened and Kate peeked in. “Oh, I see. You’re bathing.” She said sarcastically. “Coming.” I wiped my shirt clumsily. It made no difference. Who cares anyway, and I walked out of the toilet.

Since the incident where I tried to kill myself, my parents had been totally, over cautious about everything I do. “SUMMER! What are you doing?” Mom screamed from the living hall. “Umm, I’m cutting the cucumbers?” “LET ME DO IT!” “Oh okay.” They wouldn’t even let me handle the knife. Perhaps they were right doing so, cause’ I did once or twice wondering how does it feel like to peel off my skin using the knife.

I’ve seen Carter even lesser at school now. No doubt he had been avoiding me. I’ve never tried approaching him again though. Maybe he really does want me to move on and leave him with his life. So, I tried to listen. But I eventually felt tired of being happy all the time, especially when I’m not at all.

On the other hand, Sean had almost, completely gone into my life. Mom had sort of put in charge of him accompanying me all the time. I wonder why Mom had suddenly put so much trust in him. She barely knows him. But, I feel comfortable enough being with Sean, so it doesn’t matter.

…

I stared at the window outside. The winds were blowing strongly. A lightning flashed across the sky, and lighted up the dark sky. I hided my face into my pillow and covered my ears with both of my hands. A loud thunder rumbled. It was so loud it sounded like as if the house was going down. I checked the time. 4.55am.

A few seconds later, it started pouring outside.

I turned my body, so that I was facing upwards. I looked at the ceilings for quite a while and checked the time again, 5.00am. I yawned. My eyelids felt heavy and I thought I was going to fall asleep. But then, my eyes don’t obey, and I stayed awake. So, I checked the time again, 5.07am. God, I couldn’t sleep anymore. And so, I decided to get up. Even though there are still 3 hours until the school open.

I got down from my bed and tried hard not to tumble onto anything. I reached my hands out in the dark and switched on the table lamp. I took out a ball point pen and started writing.

Dear Carter,

I wonder if there’s any chance in the future that you might be able to forgive me. Forgive me on all the hurtful words I’ve spoken to you. I’m really sorry. And I couldn’t deny to myself that I still love you. I’ve made the biggest mistake I’ve ever did in my life. If time could be rewind, I would give up everything I have to do so. Life had been so dreadful without you. I find myself no reason to wake up every day. I find myself wandering in the past. Trying hard to remember every second we had together, not letting them fade away. Sometimes, I could even see our shadows. Sometimes, I could even hear your tender voice calling out for me. But, all of that was just my pathetic illusion. I’m desperately in need of you.

Life isn’t complete without you. I’m so shattered. Will you be able to fix me? Will you be able to mend my broken heart?

Carter, remember you once promised me that you’ll never give up on me? Promises aren’t made to be broken. And I’ve been waiting for the day that you’ll come back to me. It had been almost a year now. Yet, it seemed to me that your hatred towards me had grown even stronger, day by day. Remember you used to be the one waiting for me? Now I am the one.

How is it that you can leave everything we had? How is it that you can stop loving? This is all killing me. I’ve never felt so alone in my life before. I tried doing the same as you told me, move on. But everything turned out even worse. I wonder why I would have the thought that I could let you go, I could forget everything that happened between us and live a new life. I don’t know why. And clearly, I don’t know how.

I was lying all along to myself. The feeling never faded. It was only left, hidden somewhere beneath my heart.

Carter, I miss you. How are you doing in your life?

A few drops of tears fell down from my cheeks and wetted the paper. I clutched the letter in my hands. In a spilt second, I tore them into pieces. I picked up the pieces of paper and threw them into the dustbin. What was I thinking? Sending him letters? Summer, you have to do better in moving on.

I walked towards my wardrobe and chose a plain t-shirt with a jean. I cleaned myself up and got dressed. I went downstairs, walking quietly, not wanting to wake my parents up at this time. I opened the fridge and the cool air blew towards me. I took out the carton of milk, poured them into a glass, and closed the fridge. I searched for some bread, but there weren’t any. So, I grabbed my glass of milk and sat on the couch, facing the blank TV screen.

I did everything slower than usual, dragging along the time.

After I finished with my light breakfast, I went to my library, picked out one of my favorite book. With The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks in my hand, I walked into the backyard. I sat down on the swing, the sunflowers blooming beside me. I took a deep breathe, inhaling the fresh airs and entered into the imaginary world.

...The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they always have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reason. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will become.

When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye.

I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before...

Tears welled up my eyes. Why did I choose this saddening book? This day is gonna be worse. I shook my head, at the same time wishing to shake off the bad feeling. I felt so bitter. The words had cut me to the core, each and every one of them. I skipped the paragraph and flipped to the next page.

Suddenly a piece of paper fell onto the grass. I bend my body and picked it up. The paper is slightly crumbled, for I guess, it had been in between the pages of the books for quite some time. My fingers touched the handwritings written on the paper.

To the most beautiful lady I know –
Now that I’m alone again, nothing is as it once was.
The sky is grayer, the ocean is more forbidding.
Will you make it right?
The only way is to see you again.
I miss you,
Carter.

I laid the paper on my lap. My throat ached, making it difficult to breathe. I dabbed my eyes using my fingers lightly. Composing myself, I read through it again and again. Recalling the memories behind this piece of note Carter gave me.

…

“I’ll miss you so much Summer! Like so much, so much.” He sighed. “I know.” I touched his face gently and giggled. “Oh, come on Carter, it won’t be long, just two weeks off.” It was the mid year holiday, and my family and I were heading back our hometown. My grandparents said they missed their granddaughter. Truly, it had been a very long time since I saw those two friendly old folks. “Just two weeks huh.” He made a sad face and stared up at the sky. “Hey, you have to learn to live without me someday still.” I was lying on his chest, counting his heart beats, as he swung both of us in the air. “Yeah right, as if you could!” And he laughed lightheartedly.

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Yes, I remembered that holiday. Carter sent me little notes every day. I still didn’t figure out how he got my hometown address. But anyhow, he’s always full with surprises. And I kept all the notes he wrote for me. I wonder how this one got here, and where are the others.

As I was deep in thought, trying to figure out where the other little notes are, the sun started to rose up from the east. The sky was suddenly lightened up by the shining sun. The clouds were painted in golden orange color, as the sun rose even higher. I checked the time, 7.10am. Sean should be here in a few minutes.

I slipped the note into the page where I stopped reading and went into the kitchen from the backdoor. I tidied myself up, washed my face as my eyes were all reddish already. And the bell rang.

I looked at the mirror and made a wide smile with my fingers. As my fingers dropped down to my side, I was back with my sulking face again. I just couldn’t feel the happiness. I opened the door and Sean was with his usual cheerful look. “Morning lady.” “Morning Carter.” I covered my mouth, I didn’t expect that. I thought Sean was going to get mad for me mistaking him as Carter, but he just laughed. “I’m Sean Connor if you don’t know that, miss.” “Sorry, my mistake, Chief.” Sean smiled at me.

“I see your eyes are red. Thought about that fella’ again?” Washing my face doesn’t make any difference, I see. “Yeah, he just somehow flashed over my mind.” “Hmm. He’s even disturbing your mind? How rude of him.” I giggled. He turned on the stereo and his favorite country singer was on the radio. The girl’s beautiful voice always sounded familiar to me, but I just couldn’t remember her name. Well, as if I would care about the entertainment world.

Cause’ when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you gotta believe them. And when you’re fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin around. But in your life you do things greater than dating the boy on the football team …

I wished she had been there to tell me that when I was fifteen. I looked outside the car window and started tracing a love shape with my finger. I spotted a couple walking hand in hand across the street. I’ve seen couples very often and I swear I never had this kind of envious feeling I’m having right now. But well, days were different back then, I got Carter with me.

“Taylor Swift is so great isn’t she?” “Huh?” “The song you were humming just now? That’s Fifteen by Taylor Swift, my favorite country singer.” He said, sort of in respect. I didn’t realize I was humming. “Oh, so that’s her name.” “Tell me you don’t know.” “I know now.” And I stuck my tongue out at Sean. “The famous 19 years old, country singer Taylor Swift. You only know now!? Summer, you really need to take a walk at the outside world.” I laughed.

8.00am. It took us longer than usual to get to school. I looked around. These houses, I’ve never seen them during our route to school before. Maybe Sean was driving another way. As I was about to ask Sean, a beautiful view laid down before my eyes. Tall coconut trees were swaying beside the road. A lot of white yachts were out at the sea. There were kids running around at the beach, flying kites. Sean opened the car window for me and I could smell the ocean, I could hear the kids’ clear and happy laughter. I looked at Sean gratefully. I was so delighted and overjoyed.

The sky looked beautiful even after the heavy rain in the morning. It was a perfect fine sunny morning. It’s been long since I felt, that happy. Every smiles and laughter of mine were really out from my heart. We took of our shoes and left it under a coconut tree. The sands were so soft and cool. It felt so good to walk on even with barefoot.

“So, what brought you here?” He was closing his eyes and enjoying the cool sea breeze as I am. “You, of course.” “Me?” “It’s been long since you got out seeing the world, just a little surprise. I thought it might cheer you up too, since you looked sort of sulky today.” I smiled. “Well, you really got me cheered up. This place is so beautiful. I don’t even remember there’s a place so beautiful that exists, even though it’s just about half an hour drive from my house.”

The waves lapped gently onto our legs. Sean sat down and he patted the sea water beside him, signifying me to sit with him too. I ignored the fact that I was going to be totally wet and sat down. Colorful kites and seagulls were flying together in the sky. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the warm water wetting my legs and my body. “Hey, don’t sleep.” Sean nudged me. “Shut up.” And I laughed. “Okay, if you insist.” Suddenly, everything went into silence. I couldn’t feel Sean beside me anymore. I opened my eyes and find myself sitting alone, and Sean was no where to be found.

I stood up, no need to say half of my body was already soaking wet. I couldn’t care much and started searching for Sean. “Sean!” I got exhausted and so I waited at the coconut tree where we left our shoes. My hands felt something in my pocket. I took out and saw 3 missed calls and 6 messages. All were from Sean.

Whr r u? -0934am.
Wait 4 me @the coconut tree. -0938am.
WHR R U? I CANT FIND YOU. -0950am.
REPLY ME. -1004am.
ANSWER MY PHONE. -1007am.
Just stand wherever u r. -1009am.

Gosh. Why didn’t I think of calling him instead of running around the beach, screaming for his name like a total crazy person? Immediately I dialed Sean’s number. “... Been here all along, so why can’t you see? You belong with me, you belong with me…” Come on Sean, picked up the damn phone, where are you? I cursed him under my breath. I was so worried, I called him for almost 5 times, but all I hear was the famous 19 years old country singer, Taylor Swift singing in his ringtone.

Suddenly I heard somebody’s footsteps coming nearer and nearer behind the coconut tree I was sitting. When I was about to turn around and see if it’s Sean, I only heard water splashing down, and second later, I was wet from head to toe. “SEAN!” I screamed at him. He laughed so hard until he fell onto the sand. I punched him hardly on his shoulder. “SEAN! I AM WET!” And then I ended up hurting my fingers. “Ouch, my fingers.” “I’m so sorry … Summer …” He couldn’t even finish his sentence with all the laughing. Tears were even starting to form in his eyes. He wiped it off and made a deep breathe. “I’m so sorry Summer. You look too funny. Seriously. I couldn’t stop myself from laughing.” I wiped off the waters on my face. Furiously, I took the bucket and ran towards the ocean, leaving Sean behind looking at me with a questioning face. Seconds later, I came back with a pail of water and immediately splashed onto his face. “HEY!” He shouted. “You cheated! This is your punishment.” Then, I started laughing my heads off as Sean was too, soaking wet like me. His hair was sticking at his face and waters were dripping from his shirt.

For the rest of the afternoon, we laid down under the hot sun, trying to dry up our clothes but in the end, almost ended up being sun burned. “I hate you so much, Sean. First you made me soaking wet, next you almost got me burned.” “Don’t I look almost the same like you?” We laughed. “Let’s get something to feed you.” “You mean you. Your bell,” I pointed at his stomach. “Rang?” We both broke into laughter at the same time, then we fought like kids all the way to the café.

“Sean, do you think I’ve gone mad about Carter?” I tried to sound casual, as he finished with his last spoon of ice cream. “Well,” He placed down his spoon. “I’ve been through these dark times too. So, I truly understand your feelings. I know it is difficult sometimes to leave your past and move on, especially when you think you’ve hurt your special one.” He poked my nose. “Technically, you’re not as mad as I’ve been before. Talking about my last broke up. I disappeared for almost four days.” “You're really crazy for the girl.” “Yeap, that’s exactly what everyone said.” I took my last bite of sandwich. Sean continued saying. “It’s normal to feel like this. You’re not really losing your mind.” “People always said that one day I would be happy again and this really, awful feeling would just be a distant memory.” “I know, but it was getting to that feeling that part was the hard part right?” He finished off my sentence. “Uh-huh.” I nodded my head. “Don’t worry, you’ll have plenty of time. And I’ll always be around.” He reached his hand across the table and placed it on mine.

Everything had been so nice, until … the unexpected happened.

“Wow, I’ve never know that sun set could be so beautiful.” The sun set view by the beach was totally exhilarating. The ocean was in golden color, so beautiful as if it had just been painted. Suddenly, Sean hugged me from behind. I was shocked by his ambush. “Summer, I love you.” He whispered into my ears. The sound of the world was muted. The only thing audible was my heart beat, racing wildly. Inhale. Exhale. He turned my face so that he could look deep into my eyes. “Can I …” He held my hands. “Make you mine?” No words came out of my voice. I couldn’t. No. I can’t. But, how could I possibly break my best friend’s heart? It would tear me apart and make my life even worse than now. Guiltiness, happiness, my feelings were all mixed up. He looked into my eyes, waiting desperately for my answer. My hands dropped down and I turned to the sun, which had almost swallowed up by the sea. The sky was starting to turn dark.

“What’s wrong Summer?” I tried to avoid his eyes. I need to reassure my feelings, so that I could be cruel enough to say those words. I felt uncomfortable being so close with him. “Please? Be my lady?” “NO!” I said in a cold tone. “I know you love me Summer, I can see in your eyes.” He leaned closer towards me. Before I could realize anything, his lips crashed onto mine. I struggled out of him. Sean doesn't give up. Instead he went even deeper into me, urging me to reply his kiss. When he finally stopped to let me breathe, he gave me a smirk. “That wasn’t too bad Summer.” Without hesitation, I slapped him hardly on his face and ran off.

This isn’t happening now. No.

I kept on running and running until I was totally out of breathe. My handphone wouldn’t stop ringing, eventually I switched it off. Silence was all I needed. Where am I? I looked around, the night had already arrived. All the tall coconut trees surrounding me, I should be still at the beach. My head turned and look behind. It was quiet, only the lapping sounds of the waves. I think I got lost of Sean.

Rewinding back to what happened just now. Partly, what Sean said was true. Yes, I do love him a lot. But, I don’t know, I just couldn’t accept the fact that I do, especially in this kind of situation, especially when I’m still trying to get over Carter, especially when I couldn’t and I want Carter to come back my life. I feel like I’m cheating on both of them and the thought struck me.

The angel and devil in my mind started quarreling.

“Oh stop dwelling on the past Summer, Carter isn’t everything!” The devil shouted at my ears. “No Summer this isn’t right, you love Carter, you know that!” The angel fought back. “And you know that Carter doesn’t love you anymore! But Sean now, wants to be the one to protect you and you seem very happy when he’s around.” “That isn’t true you this little devil. There’s still a part of Carter that wants you back, Summer.” “I guess there’s a bigger part that all Carter wants is Summer to be happy again.” The devil snickered.

“SHUT UP, YOU BOTH.” I screamed loudly towards the ocean, wanting to scream out all my pain. The angel and devil’s voices vanished from my mind, leaving me and myself, alone. I sorted out the pros and cons. If I ended up with Sean, life would be really happy just as it had been for the few months he had been helping to heal my wound. I have no doubt Sean can provide me the happiness I need. But, I miss Carter and I knew I would do anything to get back with him, only if the tiniest chance exists. What if it isn’t like what I had in mind?

“Sean? ...”

Seemed like the devil had won over me.

Credits to, The Notebook and Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks.

CHAPTER FOUR: THE TRUTH LIES

Summer's Tale

Chapter Four: The truth lies.

My eyes felt so dry after crying into bed yesterday night. I shuddered once again, of the terrible incident. I got down my bed. The air was filled with the smell of … hot lemon tea with honey, peanut butter waffles. Ah, my favorite. I thought it was Mom in the kitchen making breakfast. As I was about to approach her and give her a morning kiss, Sean turned around and all I could do was stare at him. I find the whole image really funny. Sean was wearing my Mom’s apron that obviously couldn’t fit his size, in the kitchen, making my favorite breakfast. I burst into a laugh. “Gosh, Sean …” I wipe the tears away, I was laughing so hard. “Oh come on, Summer, I don’t really look that bad...” He looked down at himself. “… do I?” “Worse.” He too, broke into a roar of laughter.

As we both finished off our breakfast, none of us left the table. I know Sean is in need of knowing some logical explanation. But perhaps he couldn’t find the suitable words to break the ice. When I was about to speak …

“Did you have a good night sleep Summer?” “Hardly.” I sighed. “Would you want to tell me what was all that about, last night?” “Before that, can I ask you something?” “Spit it.” “How did you know I was there? I don’t remember telling anyone about it, except for Victoria…” “So it was that bitch that brought you into this. I should have thought about that.” “Don’t blame Victoria, I asked her to and I insisted her to bring me there. I thought it should be nice to get myself a drink. Just get out of this filthy house. That guy was really friendly, we started talking and everything. I was really drunk. I had a bad day, that’s all.” “Summer, you know you could call me.” I placed one finger on his lips. “I know Sean. Now, answer me?” His eyes flicked onto his leftovers and then glanced up on me. He tilted his head as he hesitated. “Was it him? Just answer yes or no.” “Yeah.” He whispered. I guess he was hoping I couldn’t hear it. “But how?” “I don’t know either. I got his message that you were in trouble, then…” Suddenly, he covered his mouth. “Gee, Summer. This was supposed to be a secret!” “Why the hell did Carter want to keep this from me?” “I don't know Summer. He might have known that you would do something stupid or reckless. He still worries a lot about you. Guess he's trying to protect you from being hurt.” “I'm already totally broken apart Sean.” I sobbed. Sean covered his mouth again. “Okay, I swear I’m not gonna say a word anymore.” He leaned towards me and gave me a comforting hug.

As I stepped out from Sean’s car, Kate and Corinne came running towards me. Before I could say anything, they both hugged me. They started sobbing. I patted their back gently. “Summer. I’m so glad to see you. Like really, really so glad.” I looked at Kate and smiled. “Summer, we heard what happened to you. Everyone was terrified. Thank goodness, you’re alright, Summer.” Corinne looked at me, worryingly. “Girls, I’m here. And I’m safe.” I squeezed their hands tightly, to convince them I was feeling fine.

I walked towards my locker with Kate and Corinne close by my side. People gave me weird looks and moved a step away from me as I got nearer. I looked down at my clothes and smelled my hairs. No, I looked perfectly fine. I smelled perfectly fine. Why are people looking at me like I’m a freak? “Girls, what’s wrong with the people?” I whispered. “The news got spread.” “And fast.” Corinne added. Ouch, that hurt. Oh god. That is really, a big humiliation. I guess people might even be asking questions like, “Is she still, a virgin?” O-M-G, I refused to think about that.

“Carter, did you hear about the rumors? About Summer?” I glanced up, as I heard my name mentioned, especially together with Carter’s. I looked around, trying to find where was the conversation coming from. There they are. Will and Rob were laughing their heads off. I have no doubt they’re talking about me. Carter smiled weakly. He looked exhausted and tired. I wonder had he been staying up late again.

Victoria got to my side for a sudden. She gasped for air and tried to find the right words to say to me. “Summer, Summer, Summer. I’m so sorry! I shouldn’t have left you alone. I shouldn’t have even brought you to that place at the beginning. If anything had happened to you, I really don’t know what to do. Oh god, Summer!” I told her a thousand times, or maybe more than that, it’s okay and I was the one who got me into all this shit. But she had been following me throughout the whole day in school, telling me how sorry she is and asked if there’s anyway to make things right. Sometimes I find it very bothering and wanted so much to zip up her mouth, but part of me, knew that she was just feeling guilty and I wouldn’t want to make things even worse for her. So, I just kept quiet.

Chemistry. Mr. Finnegan was writing notes on the whiteboard and preparing for a slideshow. A few students hurried to their seats and he started his lesson. My mind was so occupied, that I could hear absolutely nothing around me, it’s like someone had just muted every single sound in the world. I can see students opening their jaw widely, perhaps laughing? I can see Mr. Finnegan pointing the slideshow and his mouth was moving fast. I couldn’t get out of my mind about what Sean told me, about … Carter. My eyes dropped on the empty seat beside me. He used to sit here, leaning inches beside me, and sometimes when Mr. Finnegan isn’t looking, he would play with my hair, drumming his fingers gently on my hands. Trying as hard as possible to distract me, and he always did. Now he isn’t anywhere near. Since our break up, he went up to our class administrator and changed his whole time table. I wonder is it possible for a person to hate somebody so much, so much that they can’t even stand a look? How can someone who was once so deeply in love with me, hate me so much? I wonder. So the answer lies beneath the word, once.

… Once upon a time, the girl who fell in love, had never felt that ever blissful than sleeping in his arms. Everything just looked so beautiful. The whole world seemed to be filled with joy and happiness. Once upon a time, she used to look forward everyday as she wakes up from her sleep. Once upon a time, she could share all her sadness with him and he would know the way to cure her pain. Once upon a time, he loved her so much. So much more than a human can ever possibly love her. Once upon a time, she thought that their love story would have a happy ending.

I was just a naïve girl. Happy ending doesn’t exist. They don’t compel with the reality world. But, what if there’s a tiniest chance that Carter never stop loving me? Would that raised up the flames again? Would it burn once more? Would our love story be able to continue again? …

The lunch break bell rang and pulled me back from my thoughts. I looked around, the class was already half empty. Kate and Corinne finished packing up their books and waved at me, “Summer, you coming?” “Err, sorry. I got something to work on. Bye girls.” They nodded their heads and headed towards the cafeteria. I piled up my chemistry books and got out of the chemistry class, last.

I dashed off to my locker and placed my books inside. I looked at my watch. Okay, there’s still plenty of time. The question in my head is driving me crazy. I need to get the answer right now. I walked towards the cafeteria. He would definitely be there. I know he never skip his lunch.

Hold on a sec. I just told my girls that I’m not joining them. Never mind, I would get to them about this later.

As I stepped in the crowded cafeteria, I spotted him sitting at the same, old place. Will and Rob was there, April as well, I was told that she was Carter’s biggest crush before. Perhaps, still is. Or maybe she’s already his girlfriend. But, there’s an empty seat beside Carter. And, that’s … where I always sat.

I don’t really have exactly in my mind, what am I suppose to say. The last time I talked to him, I ended up so drunk that I couldn’t defend myself in the Judith’s Pub. But the question had been stirring in my mind for the whole time, I couldn’t stand any longer, even though I already had the feeling that I might end up even worse than the last. Then, my feet started taking me towards his table.

All his friends eventually stared at me with questioning look on their face, as I approached them. I find myself in an awkward situation. Carter did not glance up at me, even though I was already at the table. Until words suddenly came out, I realized it was my voice.

“Carter, I need to know...” He banged on the table and turned to face me. “We’re over! What’s more to know about?!” He’s voice was so loud that almost every student in the cafeteria turned and looked at us. “I need to know the truth!” “Okay fine, you want to know the truth. I give you the truth. The truth is, I am sick of you and I hate you so much. I’ve move on and you should learn how to. Stop messing up with my life.” I got stunned at his words. I tried to recall again and started trembling. “Impossible… Carter, you’re lying! I know you are.” Hot tears wetted my cheeks. “Stop this shit Summer. Accept the fact, damn it. I don’t love you anymore.” Sean suddenly came over my side. “And honestly, life is so much better without you.” I stared at him in horror. My eyes were brimmed by the salty tears. Sean’s fist stiffened. “You, this son of a bitch!” When he was about to punch Carter’s face with all his energy, I caught hold of his fist. “Please, Sean. Don’t hurt him.” I glanced once more at Carter and left. Sean ran to me and grabbed my arm. I pushed it away immediately. “Don’t … Sean.” I could barely utter a word anymore.

His words kept on lingering in my mind. The image of his face appeared, again and again. How tense he looked when he said those words. How strongly he meant each and every one of them, as he spoke out.

I don’t love you anymore… Life is so much better without you …

I got totally no idea what happened during the rest of the lessons.

…

Tell me why, you’re so hard to forget? Don’t remind me, I’m not over it. Tell me why, I can’t seem to face the truth? I’m just a little too not over you … not over you …

A familiar song rang in my head as I walked at the edges of the balcony, my favorite hiding spot. Since we broke up, I came up here everyday. Trying to piece back what’s only left, our memories cause’ I don’t want them to fade away as time goes by. They’re the best I’ve ever had. My heart which had already been torn apart now had shattered into millions of pieces. Carter gave up on me, when he promised me he wouldn’t. Carter left me. And he was my life. I couldn’t survive through that.

The wind blew at my face. So here I am, standing on the roof of the school building. Who knew Summer Darren’s ending would have been by jumping down from a four storey high building? Yeah, even the brightest kid.

I looked down from the balcony. A lot of students were rushing out. Some of them noticed me standing up here, started pointing their fingers at me. I bet they were curious what experiment was I doing. It’s the life and death experiment people.

I know everything would go very fast. Jump down, enjoy a few seconds in the air and hit the ground, and I’ll stop breathing by then. I smiled at my thought.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I relaxed my body. I thought about everyone I knew and their images flashed across my mind. “Sorry, I let all of you down.” I whispered my last goodbye and …

“Beep… beep…” An unknown number appeared on my handphone screen. I picked up the call. “Hello?” There wasn’t any respond on the other side of the phone. My fingers almost touched the end call button. “Wait.” I was unable to breathe. The call that I had been waiting for, the voice I missed so much. “Summer, don’t do this.” I heard the sadness hidden under his voice. “Carter.” I exhaled as I spoke his name. Seconds later, I slipped from the balcony edge.

“SUMMER!” Sean managed to grab hold of my hands before I fell down from the building. I heard Kate and Corinne screaming from the ground. He pulled me up and held me tight in his arms. “Summer, god Summer. Don’t you do that to me ever, again.”

Tears trickled down my face.

I know there’s a part, deep down in Carter’s heart, still craving for my love, he’s just too stubborn to admit it. And I realized sometimes, even the truth lies.

CHAPTER THREE: HORROR AND DESPAIR

Summer's Tale

Chapter Three: Horror and despair.

“Kate, I rather not listen to your explanation. Why? Because I absolutely understand the circumstances you’re facing. And I know, nobody can stand looking at my sickening face. So, I’ll just vanish from your sight. I’m not going to let my insaneness ruining your perfect life.” Kate stared at me in horror as I spilled everything out in front of her. I know I had been the troublesome one. And I don’t want that to ruin everybody’s life. “And Kate? Thanks for being my best friend all along.” Without waiting for Kate’s reply, I walked away.

I ran up to my hiding spot. I needed to get out from the crowd. I needed to be alone. I stared up the sky, it looked all so gloomy today. Then, it started drizzling. I stood still, as it continued raining heavily. I felt weaker and weaker. The rain drops hitting on my face. I felt pain. Pins and needles ran up the back of my neck and a lump in my throat threatened to choke me. Slowly, I collapsed to the ground. Drown me. Make the pain go away, please. I closed my eyes, waiting for my last breath. My time is up. Death had never felt so welcoming to me, as I tried to reach out for it. Seconds later, darkness hit upon me.

…

Vividly, I could hear heavy footsteps approaching me. “Summer, Summer.” I could hear my mom’s worried voice. I could picture her face, eyebrows furrowed, forehead wrinkled with worry. “Can you hear me, Summer?” Sean’s warm hand was holding mine. I struggled to open my eyes, but they refused to obey, they remained tight closed. “Summer, wake up. I’m so sorry, Summer. Let me see you smile again, please.” It was Kate. I wanted to speak and tell Kate everything is fine. But my lips remained unsealed.

Tick tock tick tock.

The strong smell of medicine and the blinding white walls, I was in the hospital. But why had I ended up here? I tried to rewind back, but my head hurts as I started thinking. I looked around. The room was empty. There were flowers and get-well-soon cards on the table. How long had I been unconscious? I tried to get up but with all the needles on my hands, it was difficult.

“Summer, hey wait, what are you doing? Trying to make an escape from the hospital?” Sean ran to my side and stopped me. “Sean, why am I here?” “You really don’t remember a thing?” “I remembered screaming at Kate and I got up to my hiding spot. It was raining. I lay on the ground. I thought I was going to die. Then, I ended up here.” “You truly were going to die, Summer. We couldn’t find you anywhere. Until somebody told us you might be up at that hiding spot of yours. When we found you, you were already unconscious. And you were having a really high fever. The doctor said you could have gone into a coma if we were just a few seconds late… ” “Wait. Wait, Sean! Nobody knows my hiding spot. ” It couldn’t be him. I looked at Sean’s face. He was hesitating whether or not to tell the truth. “SEAN!” “Carter knew.” I took a deep breathe as I heard his name.

…

After so many days, I still couldn’t get over the fact that Carter had been there. It’s like so impossible. I wanted to talk to him, in second thought, or maybe not. Well, a thank you wouldn’t harm right? He had been my lifesaver whichever how. How bad would it possibly turned out to be?

The door made a squeaking sound as I opened it and found out that the house was empty. Usually by this time, Mom would be in the kitchen preparing for our dinner. But the house was in complete silence. Never mind that, Dad should be home any minute.

I went into my bathroom. Looking at the reflection of myself in the mirror, I’ve really been in a mess. My hairs were all tangled upon together. I could see dark circles beneath my eyes. I’ve never got a good sleep for quite a long time. I decided to have a warm bath to soothe out my depressed feelings. As the water splashed on my face, tears rolled down my cheeks. I shouldn’t have made that move. This is all just a big, silly mistake.

The warm bath didn’t manage to make things better. I sat on my bed and stared blankly around my room. My eyes fell on a photo of us. It was during the school dance last year. I remembered how we swirled around the dance floor, how hard I laughed as I was a really bad dancer, and I kept stepping on his toes. His hand was on my waist and I was resting my head on his shoulder, and my eyes were locked on his. People changes as the time go. Those hurtful words he said this afternoon, eventually torn my heart into million of pieces. I was just trying to be nice …

There he was, leaning against his locker. I gathered all my courage and took a step ahead. He looked at me, in disgust. “Carter, can I talk to you?” “Is there still anything left for us to talk?” His words were like swords, too sharp for my heart to handle. I held on to my tears. “Thank you for saving me the other day.” “Yeah.” He replied in a cold tone, his eyes never looking at me. And he left.

I thought that there would be a day that I would be back in his arms again. When he turned his back on me, my dreams were left scattered. I know he hated me a lot and he’s never going to forgive me. How I wished I could take back all the horrible words I’ve said to him. Now, all that was left was a bundle of memories.

I cried till I fell asleep. I woke up a few times in the middle of the night. I don’t know what time it was but it was still dark so I assumed it wasn’t morning yet. I could have got up and went in the kitchen for a drink, or it might have been just a dream. I have no idea. My head felt so heavy and dizzy most of the time.

The phone rang for so many times. I wonder why nobody is picking it. I was annoyed and ran downstairs. Odd, I find the living room still the same as I left it the night before. The lights were still on. I guess Mom and Dad did not came back home at all. I picked up the phone and the line went dead. I counted how many seconds would it takes for the person to call back, when I counted ten for the third time and was about to give up, the phone finally rang.

“Hello?” Who the heck is this? “Excuse me. Who is on the line please?” This is so ridiculous. “Who is this?!” I have no patience for this kind of joke. “Tut… tut…” The person hanged up the phone. I cursed him under my breath.

I looked at the clock. 8.30 a.m. Maybe I should check out what my parents are up to. I dialed my Mom’s phone. “Mom, where are you?” “OH, Summer!” She said in astonishment, as if an old friend of hers called to catch up her life or something. “I’m so sorry, Summer. Your dad and I met up with our ex-school mates. We had an awesome lunch together. Summer, do you remember Uncle Jim…” Mom continued babbling. I wasn’t really listening to what she said. From time to time, I made some noises in respond that I was still there. When she finally said goodbye, I only realized that my parents had actually gone travelling without notifying their daughter. Or plan to.

I was supposed to be in school at this time. But I couldn’t possibly face my friends in my sickening face. I wouldn’t want to face Carter either and vise versa. For most of the time, I just sat, daydreaming or wandering around the house. There’s nothing much to do. I ate when my stomach grumbled for food. I slept when my eyelids started to fall. The hours just seemed to pass by without me knowing what time it was already.

I stared outside the window. The sky was getting dark. I need to get out of this place. I need to feel joy and happiness. I do, desperately. I know just exactly who can bring me to them.

“Victoria, are you free tonight?”

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I started coughing when Victoria brought me in to Judith’s Pub. It was stuffy inside, with no ventilation or air conditioning at all, and I find it really difficult to breathe in the smoky air. Practically everyone around me seemed to be smoking and my eyes felt so stingy. I was hesitating is this where I should be? Victoria pulled me in before I could run. “Believe me, Summer, you will have the best night ever here. Just push away all your pain and enjoy.” Her voice terrified me. She left me at the bar and dashed off. I felt really uneasy. I took a sip at my drink and looked around. I don’t know what I am looking for, because none of the familiar faces I know would appear out of this place.

A tall and dark handsome guy approached me. “Vodka and Coke, two please.” He grinned at me. “For the beautiful lady.” I smiled shyly. Richard is such a friendly person. He’s so easy to talk to. Even though we only knew each other for a few hours, I felt like I can tell him about everything. So we went on and on talking about our life, friends and families. I’d seldom confess the truths to people, especially to strangers. But Richard is just so different.

I looked at my watch. It was half past midnight already. “Hey, Richard thanks for the night. It had been nice talking to you. But time flies when we have fun. I gotta run, handsome.” I tried to get up from the seat. I wobbled. My head felt so dizzy. I think I had too much. But come on. Vodka and Coke, how drunk can I be? Richard laughed. “Why don’t I give you a ride? Drink and drive is illegal, ya know?” “How thoughtful of you, Richard.” I teased him. He helped me to get up and half carried me out of the pub.

I wouldn’t stop laughing insanely on his tales. Richard was telling me the incident his ex dumped him because a lady tripped over him. He said his ex-girlfriend wouldn’t believe that was an accident. In fact, she thinks that Richard wanted to have a peek at the lady’s underwear.

I threw up a few times. Thank goodness Richard was there to help me, or else I might have fallen into the drain.

I realized the pathway was getting darker. “Richard, I thought your car was just outside the pub?” “Yeah, I know. I was thinking about taking a longer way to get there.” “Oh.” I smiled. Suddenly, Richard pushed me towards the wall. He was so near me, I could even smell his breath. Ew. Vodka and Coke. “Get off me Richard, you’re heavy.” I thought he was just fooling around. He kept his hand firmly on the wall. “Sorry to disappoint you Summer, but I am the bad guy.” His eyes looked so scary. Seconds later, his lips crushed onto mine, roughly.

I struggled to get away but his hands were holding my waist tightly, I couldn’t move an inch. I tried to scream but his lips were glued to mine, I could hardly breathe. His lips ran over to my shoulder, I kicked his legs and started running. I keep looking in front. It’s almost the corner. There would be people. I can make it, I know I can.

I lost my balance and I fell. My knees were bleeding. I can hear Richard’s footstep getting nearer. I felt so tired and I just don’t have the energy to stand up. How can the friendly and gentle Richard turn into this kind of beast? “There you are sugar.” I started screaming. Why isn’t anybody passing through this lane? Why couldn’t anyone hear me? As Richard reached his hands out, I knew there’s no more hope.

I heard a car braked just in front of the lane. A familiar shadow ran towards me. He punched hardly on Richard’s face. Richard’s nose started to bleed. He immediately ran away. The familiar shadow did not chase upon him. He held me close. “Summer, it’s over. He’s gone. He’s gone.” My whole body was shaking. My heart was beating wildly. “Sean, oh Sean.”

Sean never left his hand away from my shoulder all the way back home. He stayed up the whole night with me. He held my hand tightly. He wouldn’t stop whispering softly into my ears, “You’re safe Summer.” He knew I was in the state of shock. Coldness ran through my neck as the horrible incident flashed over my mind once again. I cried and I never stop.

How worse can my life go? Carter, why did you let me go? My life is in horror and despair.

CHAPTER TWO: MIRACLE

Summer's Tale

Chapter Two: Miracle.

“Mom, I’m not crazy alright?!” I shrieked when she told me she was bringing me for a mental check up. Holy Christ, so to my parents now, I’ve gone insane? “You’ve skip breakfast and dinner. Look at you, how many pounds have you lost for the last one week? There got to be something wrong with you.” “I’m perfectly fine, mom. I just don’t have the appetite to eat.” I’m so not going to the hospital. “You never lose your appetite, Summer! I can hear you screaming in the middle of the night! You locked yourself in your room every time you come back from school! Summer …” “I don’t care. I’m not going!” “You have no choice, Summer.” I ran into my room and locked the door before mom could do anything. “Summer Darren, young lady, you open the door now!” Dad shouted angrily. Damn, since when did he come back?

I’m not having any mental problem. Well, love sick doesn’t count right?

“Final exam is coming. And I’m not going to let this madness of yours to destroy everything we’ve done for you Summer.” Dad continued babbling on. “A really bright future is on your hand. You can not destroy it. Do you know how high hopes we have on you?” I’m sorry Dad, seems like I’m not the genius you’re looking for. I started packing. Yes, I’m running away from home.

I grabbed for my phone and dialed Kate’s number. “Kate, you have to help me out. Can I stay at your house for a few days?” “What? Who’s there?” “Kate, it’s Summer, I need your help!” Loud music were banging through the phone. “Summer, oh. Sorry, I don’t have time to listen to your crying about Carter. So, buzz off could you?” Kate hanged up on me. Kate … I couldn’t believe this. What the heck, even my best friend gave up on me? “Please leave your message after the beep.” Corinne’s not picking up my phone, where is she? … God, I felt so hopeless. My dad’s probably going to knock down my door soon.

Sean.

“I’ll be there in a minute.” “Thanks, Sean.” I felt so grateful when I heard Sean’s voice on the phone. I knew he’ll always be there for me. Weird, dad wasn’t banging on the door anymore, mom wasn’t screaming for my name anymore.

Mom, Dad, I’m sorry. I need time to think through all this. Don’t worry about me. I’m not going to do anything reckless or irresponsible. I’ll call you guys when I’m feeling better.

Love, Summer.

I heard Sean’s car behind the yard. I opened up the window and climbed down my two storey house. Mom and dad were arguing in the kitchen. “How long had it been since you sat down and talk to your daughter?” “You were with her every day, and you don’t know what caused all this shit!” I covered up my ears. I’ve got enough with them. I ran towards Sean’s car and my vision got all blurred when I finally got into the seat. Seconds later, my cheeks felt wet and I only realize then, I was crying. Sean said nothing throughout the whole journey. Sometimes he would place his hand on my shoulder. Sometimes he would put his hand on mine. But, all the while, he remained silent. He knew I needed time to think it through. He knew silence was all I needed now.

“We’re home, Summer.” “Okay.” My voice sounded so hoarse. He handed me a tissue and gave me a one-arm hug. “Gee, Summer how many pounds have you lost?” “I don’t know the exact number, but I guess a few.” “Eating is the favorite past time in the Conner's family. And part of our house rules too.” “Sean, I really don’t have the appetite to eat.” “Guess I’ll have to make you then even if I need to feed you.” I giggled. “Summer, do you know you look a lot better when you’re smiling?” I sighed. “I miss the old time you.” “Me too, Sean. If I were to know what was about to happen, I wouldn’t even take a step to fall in love.” “You can never stop love from coming huh.” “Yeah, and I’m sorry about all the sobbing and stuffs.” “No problem at all, Summer.” He stroked my hair gently. I knew I was supposed to feel odd about this but, it felt so nice. “Umm,” I tried to push his hands away from my face. “Sean, have you told your parents yet?” “Yes, they won’t mind a bit.” “Okay. Can we go in?” “Sure sure.”

Sean’s father, Taylor Conner, made a really delicious dinner for all of us. He used to be a famous cook in our small town. I couldn’t stand myself from all the tasty foods anymore. “Wow kid, you do eat a lot.” I laughed; Whereas Sean’s mother, Jean Coleman, is a sweet lady. She welcomed me with a warm hug and said, “Summer, we understand everything, don’t worry.” A few drop of tears wetted her shoulder, I hope she didn’t noticed that.

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I excused myself from the dining room as an urge of sadness hit upon me. It would be really embarrassing enough to break down in front of the Conner’s family. Nobody can bear with me as I start crying. I couldn't stand looking at them. They reminded me of how my family used to be. Happy.

Slowly I pushed open the door and walked into Sean’s backyard. It feels a little bit chilly outside. I cuddled myself tighter into my sweater. I sighed and a cold breath came out of my mouth. I stared up into the sky. Glittering stars with the bright moon, it dimed up the whole dark sky. I’ve haven’t notice them for quite a while. That, was a common interest we used to share.

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“Summer, you love shooting stars right?” “Who doesn’t?” We had always stayed up late together, waiting for the beautiful shooting star to light up the dark sky. I didn’t care if I were that lucky to witness such miracle to happen, because Carter had been the best thing that ever happened to my life, he’s a miracle. And that’s enough for me to live for the rest of my life. “What would you wish for if you see one?” “I’m pretty greedy, so there had always been a few wishes. I’m still considering on picking which one of them.” To be with Carter forever and ever, had been the first on my wishing list. “I can give you more than one wish.” “Don’t be silly, Carter.” “Believe me, you’ll witness the miracle tonight. And I promise, you can wish for more than one.” “It couldn’t possibly be the meteor shower right?” “You are good at guessing honey.”

We stayed up all night for the miracle to happen. “I’ll wake you up when it starts to rain.” “I thought we were waiting for the shooting stars?” “Yes. Remember it’s called the meteor shower.” I laughed and closed my eyes as he held me tighter. “Summer, Summer baby. It’s raining.” I opened my eyes. And was so amazed by the majestic scene. The meteors were coming from all directions and angles – it was dizzying and overwhelming and beautiful. There were so many of them. I couldn’t even count, maybe 300, or maybe even 3000. Both of us stared up at the sky and made our wishes. He kissed me on my cheek and whispered I love you into my ears.

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Suddenly I felt so warm. Somebody covered me with another jacket. I turned and look. “It’s pretty chilly out here.” Sean sat beside me. “So why did you came out here for a sudden?” I remained silence, figuring whether I should lie or not. When I was about to open my mouth, Sean placed his finger on my lips. “Hush. Don’t try and lie to me, Summer.” I was shocked. How did he know I was about to lie? “I can’t keep anything from you huh, Sean?” “No way.” We both stared up into the sky, deep in our own thoughts.

“Does it still hurt a lot?” “Mm-hmm. Worse than you can ever imagine.” “Carter does mean a lot to you huh?” “He is my life.” “You’ll find a better one.” “That’s what everyone keeps telling me.” “You will.” “But I don’t want to. Don’t start this all over with me, Sean.” “But why?” “It’s unexplainable.” “Words are made out of alphabets, how difficult can it be?” “Have you ever felt so much pain as if your life had been snatched away, and left nothing but a lifeless soul? Have you ever felt so much regret that you couldn’t even stand it anymore? Have you ever felt so broken hearted to utter all those words when you knew that it would hurt the one you love the most, so deep? Have you ever felt like dying knowing the one you love the most think of you as nothing but another stranger?!” I gasped for air. Shocked by my sudden reaction, I broke down. “I do, Summer.” Sean held me close and let me cried all my sadness out. He was the only one I could count on in this time being. He wrapped his arms around me. “You do have lot of buckets of tears eh.” I wanted to smile, but I failed.

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“Sean,” I have nightmares. Damn, what should I say? “Yes?” “Sean, I …” I struggled on the words I wanted to say. “What’s wrong?” “Sean, can you, stay with me? I have nightmares. I know this might sound ridiculous, but I do scream a lot in my dreams.” “I’ll be here.” “Thanks. Thanks for everything, Sean.” “My pleasure.” “You’re a great guy, Sean.” “I know.” I laughed quietly and fell asleep.

“I couldn’t stand a second of silence with you anymore! The feeling is gone alright? Now get out of my life!” He stood there motionlessly as I screamed over his face, trying to fight back the tears. “I’m breaking up with you! Can you hear me?” I ran away without a thought of turning back anymore. I couldn’t stand looking at Carter’s face. I know myself too well, I might give up on the decision I’ve made. And so I continued running. It hurts me to think I’ve uttered those words that cut me through the core. It hurts me to think I’ve said those cruel words, which might haunt me every night before I go to sleep, to the one whom I love the most. Carter, I’m sorry on everything I’ve done. Go on, hate me.

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I woke up in horror, trying to find a way to breathe. I dabbed away the tears that were about to fall again. “It wasn’t that bad. It wasn’t that bad, Summer.” I tried to calm myself down. I turned my face around. I could see Sean. He was sleeping soundly, laying his head and his arm on my bed. His face looked so relax. Like there isn’t anything to worry at all, he even smiled in his sleep. I smiled, knowing that he kept his promise, he stayed with me. I reached out and touched his hand. I listened to him, breathing evenly, as I went deep into my sleep.

No matter what happens, Sean will always be there for me. Even if the world gave up on me, at least I still have Sean. He’s another miracle. I laughed at my own thought.

CHAPTER ONE: LOVE HAUNTS.

Summer's Tale

Chapter One: Love Haunts.

I opened my eyes and gasped for air. Seconds later, tears were streaming down my cheeks.

Another nightmare. I wiped away the tears and tried to shake away the horrible feeling.

I couldn’t sleep anymore. Sighed.

After so many months, why does it just keep coming back to me?

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“Summer, can you stop showing your damn face?” My best friend, Kate suddenly exploded with harsh words, “Get over him! Sweetie, accept the fact! Besides, you’re the one who dumped him! Look at him, how happy he’s with his life, he don’t give a damn about you anymore! And look at yourself, how lifeless are you? How long had you been stuck in this depressed soul of yours, Summer?” “I’m sorry Kate, I had a bad night yesterday.” “Don’t be sorry to me, sorry to yourself.”

I know this will be another bad day. Well, just like how it had been for the last, 285 days since I left him. I gave Kate a fake smile and shrugged off to my next class. I heard her mumbled something under her breath.

I couldn’t blame Kate. I knew I had driven her crazy. Besides, she helped me through the darkest time I’ve ever lived through. Despite all the harsh words she might throw at me from time to time, I knew Kate was just worried about me and she was praying every day that she could see the old time Summer come back again, the one who used to laugh so much and being so cheerful and optimistic more than anyone else.

I am Summer Darren. And this is a story about me, a pathetic girl trying to find her long lost love.

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“Summer Darren, please report at the office immediately, Mrs. Yale wants to talk to you, and it’s urgent.” Wait. Did I just hear my name? “Summer! Summer! So, the old hag wants to talk to you, what you’ve done? Flirted her husband?” Sean laughed at his own joke. “Cut it off, Sean.” I stared at him. Sean sensed that I wasn’t in a good mood for jokes, stopped laughing immediately. “This isn’t one of your best days huh?” “No. Sorry Sean.” Looking at Sean’s gloomy face made me felt so guilty. I gave him an apologetic look and headed towards Mrs. Yale’s office.

Sean knew what I was going through and he had always been there for me, even though I ignored him most of the time. But to be truth, he does make things felt better for me when things had gone so wrong. As if even the world comes down, it also didn’t matters. I guess that’s one of his talents huh. I know Sean wasn’t feeling any better than me, seeing me so torn apart. I know Sean had felt so broken hearted, looking at me, through my teary eyes.

Mrs. Yale is still waiting for me. I better hurry.

“Mrs. Yale?” “Yes. Summer.” “I heard that you wanted to talk to me?” “Yes. Summer.” There was an awkward silence between us. She was humming an unknown melody and turning her pencil with her fingers. I looked around her office, wondering what’s on Mrs. Yale’s mind and why is it taking her such a long time to talk? Doesn’t she know I have class later? Mr. Finnegan’s class! How can I miss Chemistry? Oh why isn’t she talking? Should I say something now? …

“Summer.” Her voice startled me. “Yes, Mrs. Yale?” “There had been quite a lot going on your mind isn’t?” “Yeah sure. Assignments, exams.” “I’ve been hearing a lot of comments from the teachers.” “Oh.” Oh boy, this isn’t good. “To be specific, it’s more of complaints than just comments. Summer, what had you been doing lately?” “Umm, still assignments, exams.” Oh let me out of this weird situation please. “But you haven’t been doing well.” “Yes I know, Mrs. Yale. I’ve been having a lot of problems lately. But still, I’ll try to keep up as much as possible.” “Hopefully. Summer, you know a lot of teachers have high hopes on you. They know you’ll have a bright future, so don’t let them down.” “I understand Mrs. Yale, I’ll do my best in the coming on final exam.” “I’m sure you will, Summer. Alright, you can go back to your class now.” “Goodbye Mrs. Yale.” I walked out of the office, and tried hard not to knock anything down.

Among the teachers, I am the type of smart girl, or genius you can say. They always expect a lot from me, expecting me to always be the best and most outstanding ones among the other students, expecting that I would succeed in life, expecting that I would be different. But come on, beneath I’m nothing but another normal human. With all the crying at nights, waking up in the middle of the night by the terrify nightmares, you couldn’t possibly still expect me to get my head into all the assignments and exams right?

I couldn’t get him out of my mind.

He used to come over my house everyday after school. We would spend time studying together. We would sit by the porch outside as we memorize mathematic formulas together. We would lay behind the garden with the sunflowers around us as we write an English essay together. We were such a great match really. Both of us were smart and we were bright kids …

Summer, you have to stop. That was half year ago. I know, but who could have stop love from coming? Everyone thought that we were gonna last forever. Even we thought it would. But who knew it would all end up this badly? Sighed.

“Summer, is everything alright?” I’m pretty sure Corinne had notice the frown on my face. “Yeah, as always.” “Oh, don’t be sarcastic. Mrs. Yale couldn’t be that bad right?” So what now? Even my friends think that my condition is that worse, even the school wants to kick me out? Gee. “Nothing really, just some extra classes she asked if I wanted to join.” I’m good at lying, by anyways. “Oh I see, okay then. Things would be fine, Summer. Catch you later.” “Sure.”

After Corinne left, I heard the lunch break bell rang and so I started walking towards the canteen. Suddenly, there was a familiar laughter coming from somewhere near. He passed by me and his smooth skin touches mine. My heart started racing, but as I was about to turn over and say hi, he was gone. I doubt he even realized I was there. To him, I would have been categorized in the strangers group I guess. “Oh well ... hi.” That wasn’t the first time anyway. So I just continued walking towards the café with all the crowds.

“Summer, you joining us?” Sean asked me hopefully, even though I’m sure partly he already knew what my answer would be. I shook my head and mouthed, sorry. I skipped my lunch break most of the time. My friends were all nice and kind people but I bet ten to one that they wouldn’t want me there, with my sad look and all. I don’t wanna get them in more pain now. So I decided it might be better for me to disappear by myself.

I got up to my favorite hiding spot. Where I can get away from all the sadness and tears, get away from the crowds. This is the only place I can enjoy being with myself, enjoy with the silence.

“Sometimes silence can be so nice isn’t?” Ah, the familiar voice. Still so tender, still so real. I turned around even though I’m ninety nine point nine percent sure that he wouldn’t be there. Sighed, I’m having hallucination again. Well, it’s better than nothing. And so, eventually time flies as I rewind back to those blissful days.

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“Summer, let’s ditch Mr. Kin’s class.” “Carter, the teachers are going to call the police searching all over the town for us.” He laughed. I love it a lot when he laughs. The sound just keeps on ringing in my head over and over again. “Too bad we’re the brightest kids in class isn’t?” “Yeah, that’s why Mrs. Yale always keeps an eye on us.” “You meant two eyes.” Carter truly knows how to make me laugh. “Alright you lazy bum, we have to keep moving now.” “Both of us know that we’re capable enough to skip Mr. Kin’s class.” “Yes Carter, I have no doubt that even Mr. Kin knows that. But he would love us to be there to pick out his mistakes.” “You’re right honey, better run now!” And we ran hand in hand, laughing together.

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The bell rang and it brought me back to reality. I rather live in my dreamland, reality always seem cruel and evil to me. And, Carter’s love still haunts me.